How Did We Arrive Here?

22 months. WOW! Some days it seems like we just met the little ones who have been living us for nearly two years. And other days it seems that we have known them forever.
So much of our life has changed since that one weekend when we prepared to make our house into shared living space for little ones and us. What a wild ride it has been!
As a middle mom, it is much like living in two different worlds: parenting wholeheartedly in one world and wondering when the "play" button for life will be pushed, resuming from where we left.
Yet knowing that the rest of the world, and those whom we once spent lots of time with, have moved on to different places in life.
How will we resume? We will be different people. People who have abruptly lived differently and not even had time to look back, but once in a great while when there is a chance to stop and think. Will we ever be parents again? Will we suffer from discontent if we do not parent again? Will our hearts long to help other children or was this a one time adventure for us? Will we be empty and heartbroken once again? Will our hearts recover? What will our life look like? What will be the next chapter that God writes? May God prepare our hearts for whatever He is planning...